Wait. For many of us that is a 4-letter word. We don't like to wait. We don't want to wait. The "ONE MINUTE" button on the microwave is too long! A 10-minute workout is too much. The Bible-A Minute a Day is too time consuming.
But we are constantly told to "wait upon the Lord". It's like "a little while". How long is not up to us. It's up to God and God has his own interpretation of space/time. I'm seeing this more and more these last few days. My knee-jerk response to unemployment (after freaking out!) is, hurry up and find a job...any job! And yet the still, small voice of the Spirit of God is saying....
wait.
rest.
So I'm waiting. And resting. It is sometimes and hourly struggle to not get caught up in the "must do something, must get a job, must find the next thing."
It's also a struggle to let myself accept what God has in store for me. My biggest fear is He'd make me poor and suffer humiliations galore. And who wouldn't be afraid of that? And yet, I don't think that's what He has in mind. If He does then oh well...I can respond one of two ways. Accept it and rely on Him for all or reject it and go my own way knowing it will be a struggle.
"...joy comes in the morning." I'm holding on to those words. "Come unto me all you who are weak and heavy laden and I will give you rest." I'm holding onto that one too. "God will do exceeding more than you can hope for." Yup...that one too.
Wait. A 4-letter word that has echoed in my head. Wait. A 4-letter word that once meant gritting my teeth and getting through it. Wait. A 4-letter word that now means...wait.
Eric